GOD AND RAPE

I am from India. And like every other country, anyone who is born with XX chromosome, isn’t safe irrespective of any age, any position, any place.

These days, RG KAR medical college is making the headlines, unfortunately not for it’s achievements in medical science rather for a rape case you must have heard about.

From trying to give it an angle of suicide to bend the direction of the investigation on moot scenarios, this soul-shaking incident has taken a turn indicating gang-rape leading the roots towards sex racket.

The prime suspect Sanjay Roy is strongly believed to be one of the culprits in the case.

Some goons are also involved as they tried to temper the evidences, amidst the protest and vandalized the college.

In the light of so many allegations and mis-conduct, the former Principal of the college is surely in the question who is historically no stranger to corruption and his connection to the political party.

Surely enough, the the CM Mamta Banerjee didn’t budge until it came to public outrage.

And like any other party, they are condemning the state government because it benefits their own party.

All these inhumanity, all these dirty games to get power and money, makes you question the existence of GOD. Doesn’t it!?

Well, it shook my faith to the core, I admit.

Just like you, I was shocked, angry, disappointed, frightened.

I was questioning GOD. I was pleading to him for prevention of such inhuman act and to bring Karma to such horrifying creatures.

And just when I was coming back to life, I saw comments and memes on social media which made fun of the doctor who fell to this horrific death of the inhumanity.

Imagine…thousands of people (thousands of shameless, degraded, horrific people; taking enjoyment from the brutal rape-murder case, sharing memes on it and wishing to be one of the rapists !!!!!!)

After reading this, my soul just left my body. I was thoughtless. I had no sense of cosmos for a moment.

Then, like many other Theists- I found my solace in blaming the GODS.

From searching on “Does God really exists?” to “Why God doesn’t prevents rape and other heinous crimes?”, I scrolled down my phone from 12 AM to 4 AM.

I woke up at 10 AM with still a heavy heart with no consciences of what to believe and what to do.

I listened to philosophy and holy articles still got no peace at all.

Then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, instead of thinking about “Why GOD is disappointing us?”, an idea struck my mind-

“Why we are disappointing GODS?”

One thought led to another-

“Maybe GOD exhausted all his powers to create us, left with no power to discipline us.”

“Maybe with so many people on the earth, they can’t control everything”

“Or maybe they are waiting for the culprits to punish them after life for eternity.”

So many thoughts, so much chaos

My brain and heart were arguing over example and faith.

So I decided….

Perhaps we will never know that answer of why good people suffer and why bad people are spared on so many occasions.

But we as mankind, want to believe in GOD because we want someone to blame and equally important- someone to hold on to for — HOPE.

So I decided to keep my hope alive rather than putting everything on GOD and walk away with no sense of responsibility- I will do something so GOD can help me in keeping my will-power alive.

> I decided that anytime I face a rapist, I will torture him the same way Ramsay Snow tortured Theon in Game of Thrones.

> If I can’t torture, I will try to fight till my last breath.

> If I can’t fight, I will live to take revenge from the every assaulter and to help live every survivor.

> If I can’t do that, I will start small. I will object when I see anyone slut-shamming or obejectfying women. I will report people who puts a woman’s phone number on adult websites.

> And every time I write on these matters, I will highlight the criminals rather than the victim.

Someway or another- I WILL DO MY PART.

As soon as I decided, suddenly I felt my soul back in my body again.

I smiled on my thought which is a stronger believer of Karma. Which takes charge. Which is not passive but Just.

Suddenly I felt the Prescence of GOD, not anywhere else but inside me.

I felt that God gave us free-will. Whether GOD is able to control what humans do with that or not. I still have my free-will to choose. And I chose to become the Fighter.

I chose that every moment of my life, I am not going to hold GOD responsible for my ignorance. I will rise, I will fight and I will support women like so many good people are doing today.

And I was sure that GOD will be with me in my journey.

Because I have decide to become shakti myself.

And since I found the Shakti inside me, I found the GOD I was looking for.